Handa na ba ako?

A feeling that keep on coming and coming back to me always the time that I saw a couple doing things a couple does. Laughing with each other, sharing what happened the whole day, tagging sweet posts in FB, etc. I wonder when will be the next time I’ll secretly smile without anyone noticing me that I have ‘butterflies in my stomach.’ And suddenly, after thinking about everything that happened in may first relationship, a question was shaped into my mind, “Am I ready for my second and hopefully last relationship this time?”

Ang hiraaap! Minsan naiisip ko na siguro time na ulit para magmahal ako ng seryoso. Time na ulit siguro para humanap ng makakadamay sa habang buhay at makakasama sa hirap at ginhawa. Yung babaeng mamahalin ko ng higit sa aking nauna. Yung mamahalin ko nang walang pangambang hindi siya magugustuhan ng aking mga magulang. Yung magiging proud ako kasi sobrang bait nya, maintindihin, at kung anu-ano pang magagandang bagay na maaring maging katangian ng isang babae. Yung tipong parang magkabarkada lang kami, kasama ko kabarkada nya, kasama nya kabarkada ko. Yung sa mga oras na kailangang kailangan mo ng kasama eh gagawa talaga sya ng paraan at syempre ganun din ako sa kanya. Yung parang bahay ko na rin ang bahay nila kasi lagi akong andun. Haaaay. Kailan kaya matutupad areng mga are?

Dami kasing mga bagay na nagiging dahilan kung bakit hindi ko maging priority ang paghahanap ng girlfriend eh. Unang una, sobrang busy sa school. Daming bigger priorities lalo na’t graduating ako, sana’y makagraduate nga. Pangalawa, walang budget eh. Syempre kapag pinasok mo ang isang relasyon, handa dapat ang wallet mo. Sabi nga, “you can give without loving but you cannot love without giving.” Eh pano ba yan? Pangalawa pa lang na dahilan laglag na ako. Wew. 

--to be continued..

Tarpaulin Layouts

These are some of my Tarpaulin Edits and the Actual Tarp on the right side.

 Junior Senior Promenade | IT and CS

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 Full-Charged Concert | BatStateU Cultural Groups

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BSU Dance Company Got Talent | 2011 Christmas Party

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Computer Literacy Program | IINTESS Project

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Leadership Training Program | IINTESS Project

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 The EXS Factor | Supreme Student Council Main I Project

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Groove to the Beat!

I was BORN to DANCE.

Acquaintance Backdrop

 This I made for our Department's Acquaintance Party which was held last August 11, 2012. This was used as our stage backdrop. :)

Sana pero Wag na.

Sana ako na lang... Sana ako pa rin... Sana tayo ulit... Sana alam mo ang lahat ng ito...


Mahal ko siya pero di ko kaya ang mga gusto nya. Nakakasakal. Sana di sya ganun. Pero kahit ganun sya, mahal ko tlga sya. Bilang una kong girlfriend. Mahirap mag mub-on. Lalo na't pang-una ko sya. Ang sakit at ang hirap kapag nakikita ko siyang masaya sa piling ng iba. Pero wala naman akong magagawa, dahil desisyon nya yun. Dahil wala naman akong ginawa at ginagawa at gagawin. Pero sana kahit minsan, naaalala mo ako, naiisip. Dahil ako, lagi kitang naaalala at gustong makasama. Kahit kaliwa't kanan ang hampas mo sakin, kahit ang lakas mong magsabi na para tayong nag-aaway pag magkasama tayo. AYUS lang! basta ikaw ang kasama ko. Pero sa mga panahong ito, mukhang malabo na, mukhang huli na ang lahat. Kailangan ko ng humakbang palayo. Gumawa ng sarili kong hakbangin ng wala ka. Mahirap pero kailangan. Maraming nasasaktan, maraming naapektuhan. Pero sana, wag nating alisin ang mga posibilidad na balang araw ay magbalik ang dating tayo. Yung masaya, yung naglolokohan, nag-aaway, nagtatawanan. Dahil ako, inaamin kong MISS na tlga kita. Dahil mahal pa rin kita...Mahirap pero kailangan na tlga. basta lagi mong tandaan, andito lang ako lagi.. hnd man maibalik ang 100% ng dati, andito pa rin ako nakaalalay sayo. Hndi kita malilimutan. Kung paano mo ako pinatawa, pinasaya, minahal at inalagaan. Mahal kita pero tama na. Mahal kita pero masakit na. 


Mahal kita kaya PAALAM na.


--to be continued...

The Healing: Plot and Movie Review

My GOD is BIGGER!

In our different walks of life, we have to learn on how to cope up with different things, persons, or events. We have to walk STRAIGHT. No taking too much of the right nor with the left. Just a piece of advice, DO NOT GRAB ANYONE or ANYTHING anywhere. Doing such might left you BLEEDING at the end. They are like a handful of sand. The more effort you exerted to keep them in your hand, the tighter you hold them, the faster they'll leave youwithout giving importance to the way you had hold THEM. This will just leave you thinking if you had exerted your very effort for them.

Instead, do things which you are interested with. It will help you to, if not to erase, lessen your problem. Focus your mind to the things which you know will come out with good and positive things. Think positive. As always. I've realized, why do you have to do things which you know that you would suffer at the end. Why do you have to think of those problems if you know that you'll just suffer thinking of it which will just leave you emotional. Oh c'mon! HAHA!

Instead of saying, "God, I have a BIG PROBLEM," say it this way, "Problem, I have a BIG GOD!" ^_^. Don't always box yourself with the things you see. Visualize it in a deeper way. Think of what might be the reason in such a commotion, its purpose and whom it is intended for. ^_^. Do not degrade yourself. Self appreciation comes in cans, not in cant's. ^_^

Just think of those people who care enough for you. Just think that in those lives, you had left footprints. Footprints which help them to be greater, to be stronger. That's why, they are all here for you to do the same way like what you've done to them. And just as simple as that. Do unto others what you want them to do unto you.

Maybe, this time, it's enough. No more lonely rice! LOL! ^_^ What i mean is, always think POSITIVE. As simple as that. Do not look on things on a complicated way. Seek for the bright side. BRIGHT SIDE! ^_^. 

Act like there is nothing bothering you. Even there is. Just let them pass. I know that I can do all of these things through Christ which gives me strength. He will provide strength when I don't have enough of it. Just keep the faith. And tell your problems, "Problem, I HAVE A BIG GOD!" ^_^

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